It's such an interesting period of my life. I'm in danger in saying the same thing over and over, but I guess it is always somewhat different because it is different season of life.
For me it is still hard to believe that God is SO good to me. I do feel blessed, but it feels as though I have set some limits up to which God's blessing can go, how far He can bless me... IT'S SO STUPID!!! Who am I to set boundaries for Him?! I mean, I can do that, and He doesn't go more than I let Him into my life, more than I can bear, but He always wants to bless me more... This is the thing that fascinates me the most. He doesn't settle half-way. He wants His blessing to go all the way to the end in my life, He wants to bless me abundantly so that my every need would be fulfilled fully, 100% or even more:) It's just me who cannot believe that someone can be so good to me... It's me who believe in average blessings, but not abundant. It's not about being richer or being smarter or being more beautiful or more popular and cool. It's not about you having something, but about the one who has you... It's about believing in Might God who loves you and is ready and able to give everything you need for the life He has given to you. I love Him, and I want to shine His love around. But unless I LET Him guide my steps and GO His ways, I will never be able to experience how abundant and never-ending His love is and will not be able to show that to others. In MATRIX I hear "Free your mind" (which definitely means that you have to believe that you are able to do one or another thing), and I hear God say "Open your heart" which means "Let my love come into you to give you comfort and assurance that never goes in vain that never fades." This is the real freedom - knowing that you can live with who you are and being secure in His hands and supervision. I have the father I've always dreamed of but never though I can have...
For me it is still hard to believe that God is SO good to me. I do feel blessed, but it feels as though I have set some limits up to which God's blessing can go, how far He can bless me... IT'S SO STUPID!!! Who am I to set boundaries for Him?! I mean, I can do that, and He doesn't go more than I let Him into my life, more than I can bear, but He always wants to bless me more... This is the thing that fascinates me the most. He doesn't settle half-way. He wants His blessing to go all the way to the end in my life, He wants to bless me abundantly so that my every need would be fulfilled fully, 100% or even more:) It's just me who cannot believe that someone can be so good to me... It's me who believe in average blessings, but not abundant. It's not about being richer or being smarter or being more beautiful or more popular and cool. It's not about you having something, but about the one who has you... It's about believing in Might God who loves you and is ready and able to give everything you need for the life He has given to you. I love Him, and I want to shine His love around. But unless I LET Him guide my steps and GO His ways, I will never be able to experience how abundant and never-ending His love is and will not be able to show that to others. In MATRIX I hear "Free your mind" (which definitely means that you have to believe that you are able to do one or another thing), and I hear God say "Open your heart" which means "Let my love come into you to give you comfort and assurance that never goes in vain that never fades." This is the real freedom - knowing that you can live with who you are and being secure in His hands and supervision. I have the father I've always dreamed of but never though I can have...
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