How big is your fear?

This question was bugging my mind for couple of days... Today I want to ask you, whether your fear of:
- losing job...
- not making career...
- stopping your studies or not succeeding in them...
- not having enough money...
- losing your car...
- losing your flat...
- losing the comfort you have...
- losing your family...
- losing your friends...
- being lonely...
- being out of place...
- being different...
- being called "jerk", "fanatic" or else words...
- being in the last line...
- dying...
- hunger and thirst...
- etc.

... is bigger than the fear of losing relationship with God?

So often we tie our hearts to very wordly things, sometimes with really good intentions - to proclaim Good News and God's glory... So often we end up with our glory by starting to do our works rather than God's. So often we get stressed just because we are not succeeding the way we think we should. So often we say, "I have to work, Jesus. Just wait a moment; I'll finish this and we will talk then..." So often this 'then" never comes. We find millions of reasons not to give time for Jesus. Sometimes it is because we think that He is always here, somewhere beside us... Well, yeah, He is, just after very long time of non-communication or not paying attention to what He says, we forget how His voice sounds, and how He looks like... And the consequesces are that we simply stop trusting Him, we doubt Him, we say, "Is it really your will?" or just cry out, "God show me how should I do this or that?!", but when He says what to do, we turn around as wonder, "Are you sure?". This usually happens when His suggestion does not look right to our eyes. But thanks God, that He is not like human, and sees things not like human.

So... how many compromises you make when God says you to leave your comfy sofa, flat, job...? How desparately you seek husband or wife rather that seeking God first, seeking relationship with Him? How many contra-arguments you find when you have to leave your family for God's work or just give more time for ministry...? How easy is your separation form parents to be gone with God? It sounds radical, too demanding, but God wants all your life, trust and hope to be in His hands. And it is for our best.

(hopefully to be continued)